I'm tired

I'm tired. I'm not a good busy person. I'm slightly irritable, kind of gritchy overall. Sudden flair-ups of despair, occasional pain, not without some burps of joy, but I've got to get my heart on straight. Kev's surgery, taking over everything at home that Kev used to do on top of my own stuff, working all week, a weekend of watching a 3 year-old, pressing cider tomorrow, a BBQ day after that, and then maybe some down time. "I can't get a job--it takes me all day to live my life," as our darling Rosie said.