humbled

I received this gift from a friend, and I was shocked. Not because I don't love her back, but because I would've thought she had at least one friend closer to her heart than me. At first, I thought She must mean this in a general way, like "You're one of my best friends." I even considered that she must not get out much so she must not have much to pick from. Truly, not false humility, but quick mental research into the validity of, to me, such a bold statement. The more I thought about it though, the more I thought Just give it to Him. The best friendness we love is the stuff of Him that pours into us. Let her love the embraces of our Abba that she gets from you.

It's an awesome thing to be spent by Him (and I only and always ever use that word in its original meaning: Something inspiring awe; remarkable; outstanding). To be used in a divine equation, for a glorifying occasion... Jesus used mud to open blind eyes; He can use me to hug a friend's insides. †

humility?

Often I seem put in the position of being a good friend, someone who listens and relates and responds. No sense of bragging or pride, mind you, it's just the best way to describe the circumstances. I was on the phone sooooo much longer than I expected or wanted the other day. Did she receive some blessing from that? From my involvement? I can't tell. Perhaps that is what humility is when I am Your instrument and have no felt acknowledgment of the Good that was done. I enjoy it the MOST when I have been Your hands or mouthpiece and not been aware of myself--it's just You happening… I love that the best… Ecstasy is rare, but maybe that's what lends to the exquisiteness.