a box of paradox

To:  Tina

Fr:  Cyndi

>Subject:  Re:  Friday

>Date:  Sat, 6 Sep 2003 21:30:04 –0700

You are wonderful, you are precious, you are go’geous, you are loved. You are nothing and you are everything, crap and priceless treasure worth dying and living for all in one beautiful paradox! A box of paradox are we all!

reason and rhyme

motion and time

lemon and lime

nickel and dime

water and dam

lion and lamb

thicket and ram

the Great I Am

searching, reaching, diving, drowning

still inside, the head is crowning

moving downward, inside out

this pain is hell I whispershout

i dont know how to live this way

i want to die--now--every day

i smack my head remembering

that death alone supplies the sting

that deals the blow to life's confusion

doubt and sin and blind delusion

Lord, please drown me now in Grace

deliver me and take my place

fill my lungs with Gospel air

and show me now that YOU can bear

my death and life in lovely order

a citizen on Heaven's border

help me catch the little foxes

of trickery and paradoxes

of lies i make myself believe

of smoke and mirrors that deceive

i thank You, Lord, for this arena

where You strike keys and love my tina

who grabs my hand and steals my heart

whose kids say sh** and hell and fart

who seeks Your heart with such abandon

without concern for what she'll land in

kiss her, hug her, stroke her hair

deliver from the dragon's lair

whisper sweetness in her ear

Grace and more Grace let her hear

disappear the sores and boils

slather her with Abba's oils

searching, reaching, diving, drowning

we live the hope of bridal crowning

on and up, His resonance

this is Life, His very Presence

That’s all there is right now. Hope, anguish, grace, sprinklings of sweetness, untangling from barbed wire of our own and others’ stringing, but barbed wire grace for barbed wire tangles. He is enough. May you be in the place of you&Him. Pray for me as I pray for you. Grace be yours in ridiculous abundance right now.

xo, ~c.